Spiraling...

what happened in the last couple of hours...?

I haven't seen you in over 20 years, and I am not ready to let you go again. I know I said I was a big girl, but maybe I'm not as big as I thought. I've been so careful to be appropriate, to not step over the line. So have you. And now, what will happen? Will I never get the chance to talk to you again? Will we be unable to be friends because she doesn't trust you? How many thousands of miles am I from you? And I'm married, too. My life won't be the same if I lose you. We were so close, and when we reconnected, it was like we were never apart.

I guess we just have to wait and see...