Monday, April 28, 2008

Fear...

I don't necessarily think that it's healthy, but I feel it. I feel it often. And I am feeling it now...

Lef T got a job offer. It's an amazing offer. And he's taking it. But it scares the hell out of me. For the five years we have been married, his schedule has been 7 a.m. to 4 p.m. with the ability to work from home when needed. And now... well... it's going to be sort of not the same. And the probability of traveling a couple times a month is high. It scares me. I know it will be ok, and at this point, it makes no difference because he's resigned from his current position. So, here goes.

It's ok for me to be scared about this. But, you know, I have an alarm system, and a big dog, and she has no trouble growling at people who make her uncomfortable. It's a good thing I have a leash for her in my room. Because she will be sleeping in my room when Lef T is gone. So, here's to change, hopefully for the better. I hate change. But it will be worth it if he doesn't wake up in the morning dreading going to work. Here's hoping it will be good.

5 comments:

MomOf5Gents said...

You're going to make it through. Maybe someday you will even count flexible as one of your personal strengths. :)

Speaking of change...I thought of you when I found this blog background:

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Melzie said...

I so get it... as much as I *HATE* Montana, I think, "But Joe loves his job." That means much more than my hatred... well- in a sense. :) It was scary- but now almost 2 yrs later, it was so worth it!!

jenalih said...

Change is so hard sometimes, but many times it has been worth all the fear and frustration. Here's hoping it is the best thing in the world for you. I'm glad he will finally love his job.

Frisbies Forever said...

I spend a lot of nights home alone too, with 9 kids, luckily I have several who see it as the personal sleep by Mom time and it makes it easier. Cell phones help a lot too. It will get easier, I know it's tough in the beginning. You will get used to it though and find a routine that works and then it will get disrupted. It's all good.